Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Poll the Bloggers.......

Okay all blog readers, I have a problem that I need your opinion on:

Costco or Sam's?

Friday, November 21, 2008

Returning to Work.....

I have been asked by several people how my adjustment to going back to work (as a new mom of the cutest baby in the world--- I believe mine is the cutest!) has been. This is for all my blog followers that are going back to work rather they want to for their own reasons or have to because of financial reasons or for whatever reasons. This is my personal journey and it might not be your case or what you went through so if you don't agree then we need to agree to disagree on this topic.
Okay, back to the post: First off, It's HARD! The hardest thing I ever had to do was leave her at daycare. I have done some hard things in my life (Hey..I'm in HR. I have fired people that I know have nothing but the job they just lost). This took the cake. My heart was being ripped out of my chest by the teacher who reached out her hands for my daughter. To take her away from me. For a whole day. It was awful. My daughter, who has always been independent since day 1 chose the moment I took her out of the car seat to snuggle with me. She rarely ever did this. She always preferred to see what was happening around her then to snuggle with someone. She did snuggle occasionally, but really she likes to know what is going on and snuggling makes that difficult. Anyway, so as I clutch my daughter to me and start to cry in the parking lot saying I couldn't do it, I couldn't leave her, my sweet husband hugged us both and said that we had come this far and to stick with our plan and give this new path a try. He reminded me gently that I was the one who wanted to try going back to work and if after a trial period of honestly giving it a fair shot, I discovered that it was not what I wanted then I could resign. So I have been back to work for 3 short and long weeks now and I still don't know where I stand. I like being back at work. I like doing something with my day besides wash bottles, change diapers, and talk baby talk. I don't like not knowing what my daughter is doing all the time. I don't like not being able to see her sweet smile during the day. I miss her. Terribly. My days do fly at work and I love the fact that when I pick Audrey up she smiles at me. She looks up at the sound of my voice. That is what I love about daycare. I also like that she interacts with other kids or she will soon. She is on a schedule. She doesn't nap much at daycare (too much going on), but she sleeps great at night (8:00 pm-6:00 AM). Her teacher has been with the daycare for 15 years! She is a grandmother type who loves children and I see it in how she cares for Audrey. Still it is hard. I feel torn in two. I am leaning more towards staying at home though. I am waiting to see if a telecommuting schedule will be approved at my work. If it is approved then I will probably stay working full time. This way, I can work and be with Audrey during some work days as well as give her daycare interaction.

So I know that is not a clear answer, but there you have it. It's hard. I don't feel at all how I thought I would feel returning to work. I miss her more then I ever thought possible. I have become more selfish of my time with her on the weekends (I don't do nearly what I did on the weekends before she came along). I stay at home with her and B on the weekends and we just play. Weekends are my favorite time!

I don't know what I am going to do. I am going to give myself until the end of this year to decide. Pray for me during this time. I want to make the best decision for Audrey AND my sanity.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

She's growing up!!!

Yep! It was that time again! 4 month shots. They were actually done a little early, but it worked out. She had a much harder time getting over these shots then the 2 month-ers. Screaming fit! It took me 15 minutes to settle her down. B has to take her for her 6 months. I shouldn't always be the bad guy! Here are her 4 month stats:

Wt.: 13#'s & 12 oz (50-75%)
Ht.: 2 feet & 1/4 inches (50-75%)
Head: 40 (25th%)

Exhausted after her shots and crying fit (don't blame her one bit!)
Side note--- look at her chubby little legs!!!!


Poor baby!!

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Mommy's Favorite Outfit (well one of them anyways!)

SHHHH...Daddy's sleeping!

I just couldn't resist taking this picture when I walked into the den and saw the two of them. B is just dead to the world asleep and Audrey was just hanging out like she always does. She is such an easy baby. She just goes with the flow. She only cries when she is wet, hungry or something really scares her. Sometimes if she doesn't take good naps during the day then she cries at night because she is too tired. This doesn't happen too often though!

Audrey had her 4 month shots Friday. I'll post on that soon!

Saturday, November 8, 2008

My favorite thing

Not the greatest picture in the world. I took it while shopping at Kohl's with my cell phone. She was such a trooper. Kohl's was a mad house b/c they had a super sale last weekend and everyone wanted to take advantage of it! Anyway, here is baby Audrey (one of mommy's favorite things!).

Sunday, November 2, 2008

Hi-Ho, Hi-Ho, It's off to work I go.....

Well today was my first day back to work after a WONDERFUL maternity leave. It was incredibly hard leaving Audrey behind. Even though several of my co-workers take or took their kids there and said wonderful things about the daycare, I was dying inside and crying outside. It was a good thing B was there b/c as I was taking her out of her car seat, I burst into tears and said that I couldn't do it and started to put her back in the car seat and go home. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do. I hated it, but I promised myself I would give working a fair try to see if I liked it and if it was what I wanted to continue to do. If it is not, then B and I will take the steps to allow me to be a stay-at-home mom. I do like my job and the interaction with people that it gives me, but on the other hand is the cutest face ever that I could also just stare at all day...... that might be a slight exaggeration. Anyway, we made it and Audrey actually took 2 decent naps, something she would never do at home.

For all those who prayed for me today, THANK YOU! I felt them and it helped me make it through.